March 6, 2012

Ryan slept for about 5 hours last night, from 11:30ish to 4 am.  I was very proud of him and grateful to him for that much sleep.  I can only hope this means he's moving towards sleeping all night long.  That might be way to much to ask for at this stage but I would love another 5 hours tonight.  My head hurts and my stomach feels gross tonight.  My head hurts because I had cried a little this afternoon.  Tyler came home from work with some sad news about my sweet little TK.  Apparently one of the nurses found TK earlier this year and the local dogs had gotten her.  That just made me so sad.  I drink water to make my headache go away as in the past I've gotten headaches after crying because I am sort of dehydrated but it still hurts.  I'm looking forward to some sleep tonight.

I wrote that first paragraph last night before bed.  Ryan didn't let me finish up so I though I would pick up from where I left off last night this morning.

I'm pretty sure I jinxed myself by saying I wanted sleep.  Ryan was awake more then usual, almost like he knew I wasn't feeling great and just wanted to be a turkey about it.  He was up at 1, 4, 5:30, 6:30 and then Tyler brought him to me at 8 when he was leaving for work.  And now the little stinker is sleeping on the couch beside me.  I'm going to attempt to put him in his crib so he can get a good sleep.

Yesterday around dinner time, I looked out the window and saw an eagle swimming in the ocean.  That shocked me because I didn't know eagles swam and it turns out they don't.  This bird must have fallen into the water in all the frenzy on the dock.  There were about 20 eagles hopping around and doing their thing so we are thinking this bird just got too close to the water.  The bird tried many times to flap it's wings to get out but it just couldn't get high enough out of the water to take off.  It was heart breaking.  I asked Tyler to go help it, not really knowing how that would be possible.  Tyler, being a good man, put on his jacket and tried to find some sort of glove to protect himself with.  Then we saw that a boat was going to go past this bird and we thought that it would maybe usher the bird closer to shore or scoop it out of the water with a net but the boat just floated on past.  Luckily, the bird was able to swim to shore and saved itself.  That would have turned the sad evening into an even worse night.  I didn't want to see that thing drown.  When it climbed up on shore, we could hear a bunch of people saying, "Oh good, it made it".  We weren't the only ones watching and cheering it on.

Yesterday was a good day though, even though I found out my little TK didn't make it through the new year.  My first day alone with my son.  It went well.  I read to him lots, out of all his books and then one that I found that isn't exactly age appropriate for him.  We went on a walk around town and I stopped in at the health center to see about his immunizations.  I was told that parents around here are really awesome at getting their kids immunized and as a result, Ryan is safe for the time being.  The woman who does the shots said he will likely get his on the 26th.  I'm likely going to have to go by myself as Tyler works so that wont be a great day... except that it's Tyler's birthday so it will be a great day!!

I don't have too much planned for today.  I will go on a walk around town again as it's beautiful and I have to take full advantage of the sun.  I carry Ryan around in a baby backpack type thing and it really awesome.  It puts him right to sleep and I'm able to get out of the house for some fresh air.  I have to find the grocery list as it has our dinner plans on it.  Without it, I have no idea what we are eating tonight for dinner.  I don't know where it would have gone but I don't want to have to guess what I planned.

I just put the Ry man in his crib and he didn't stir at all.  I think I'll cross stitch a bit.  I know I'm supposed to sleep when he does, but I just got up and am not tired at the moment.  I'll sleep this afternoon after the walk.

Sonja