Packing up and heading home

Hmm, I've had a few people tell me that they still check to see if we have written a post and due to laziness, tiredness and forgetfulness, it has been a while.  It's too bad that we haven't kept up with writing because our lives have been really fun and exciting these past few months.  We are finally able to get out and do lots of fun things and no one really gets to hear about it.  I guess it doesn't help that those who read this blog are the ones we are doing the fun things with, so there is less motivation to write about it.

Well, I'd like to pretend that I'll write every day like before but I just don't have the time.  Ryan doesn't have a set schedule and I'm not fully sure how to get him into one.  We've decided that there isn't a point to try to put him on a real sleep schedule until we are back home in Bella Bella.  Our days and nights in Alberta have been busy and crazy and different all the time and Ryan can't adapt that fast.  And Ryan is changing too so there isn't much point to trying something we know we will fail at.  Ryan also seems to have inherited my sleep patterns and that means we are in for some trouble.  He survives on little sleep and isn't a grouch if his sleep is interrupted.  Fortunately, once we are back home, he wont be able to fall asleep in the car and we wont be going out every weekend keeping him up past his bed time and I'll be able to give him the opportunity to sleep as much as he needs every day.  That seems really optimistic and I'm most likely in for a real surprise when whatever really happens happens.

I just can't believe that our time in Alberta is done.  We have spent the majority of this year with our family and friends and it's going to be strange to get back out to our real life, with our own stuff, with our Bella Bella friends and lifestyle.  And looking forward to the rest of this year, we will only be back at Christmas, unless Tyler gets a job in Alberta of course.

This past week has been an emotional one.  It was hard enough to say good bye when it was just Tyler and I.  But now we are taking with us sweet little Ryan and that makes it so much harder.  We visited Tyler's parents last weekend and also said good bye to our friends down in central Alberta.  And now we are visiting with my family and it's just tough knowing that it will be a long while before we see them again.  It sucks.  I know it will be good to get back out there and all that stuff, but I wish we were already there.  I wish all the saying good bye to my sisters and mom and dad and Madi and Cameron was already over so I could just not be sad any more.  But I feel like crying often when I think about it. I've really really enjoyed my summer and that's understating it.  That's not being able to find the right words for it.  I got to see Cameron the day he was born instead of having to wait till Christmas like with Madi.  I got to go to Slave Lake which is the best place on earth and hang out with my family and Tyler got to fish.  I got to visit with my sisters and brother whenever I wanted to.  I got to hang out with my friends and go to a movie and go out for dinner at different restaurants.  It was one of the best summers ever and it makes me sad to see it coming to a close.

It's actually interesting to see how Tyler and I deal with being out on the island again.  For the past year, we've been anticipating all the changes that happened this year so far.  We knew Ryan would be born at the beginning of the year so we had 9 months of waiting for that.  We knew we would be coming to Edmonton for the summer so we looked forward to that.  And now that all of it is over, we just get to live life.  It's hard for me to remember what that feels like.  I'm excited to get to be normal again, once Tyler writes his national final exam in September.  There will be no more sitting around while he studies, no more turning down invitations because he has an assignment to do.  It's going to be good to get to go for a walk without making sure we are home with enough time for Tyler to study.

Any way, this post really didn't say much but we are exhausted from our busy day of partying and are heading to bed.

Sonja