I get it!!

There was so much I didn't understand before Ryan came around.  I would hear stories of mothers who wouldn't eat all day long because, according to them, they couldn't put their child down.  I would hear stories of people not being able to shower or go out for groceries because of their kids and I never understood it.  I would think to myself, "Just put your kid down and eat something."  I didn't see why these mothers couldn't get basic things done in a day just because they had a baby.... but now I get it.  

I was thinking about this as I was sitting with Ryan on the couch.  He had just fallen asleep after being a little turkey for a few hours so I didn't want to get up to get myself some breakfast for fear of disturbing him.  And that's when I realized I had turned into one of those women who don't eat breakfast, shower or do anything unless Ryan is happy and content.  I had been sitting there for about an hour, listening to my stomach growl and watching Ryan sleep peacefully.  Actually, all this week I didn't get breakfast until Tyler woke up a few hours later and went to get me some cereal.  I get it now that I'm one of those people. And I'm pretty sure no one really gets it unless they are a mom.  I sure didn't.  I was pretty judgmental about the whole thing too but I've seen the light.  I totally get it now.  Why on earth would you disturb your child who just got back to sleep just because you are a little hungry?  I can eat later.

Yesterday evening we went over to Tyler's grandma's house for dinner.  We had pot roast, mashed potatoes, salad and then home made doughnuts.  It was a very good meal and it was really good to see more family again.  

Once we got home, I went to take a nap.  I like to take naps in the evening because I don't get great sleeps these days.  I slept for about an hour before Ryan needed me again.  It always feels good to get a bit of uninterrupted sleep.

Tyler and I then watched our 2 usual Thursday night shows, both made us laugh.  Then we went downstairs with Ryan and tried to put him to bed.  He had other plans and we stayed up until around 12:30 just reading to him, feeding him and watching a bit of tv on the computer.  Ryan just wouldn't go to sleep.  He is a little trickster baby, because every time we thought he was asleep and put him in his bed, his eyes would pop right open and he would start talking and squawking and then he would get annoyed and start crying.  After a while, Tyler fell asleep and I sat on a chair and rocked his cradle.  And finally he was asleep.

Ryan woke up a few times last night but not more then usual.  I got out of bed this morning at around 9:30 with Ryan.  Tyler was still sleeping.  I sat there with Ryan, stomach growling, watching some tv while I waited for Tyler to wake up.  

Our day has been relaxed.  We sat upstairs in the sunlight, Tyler studied for a short while, I cross stitched and Ryan laid on the floor doing the back stroke.  He was kicking and flinging his arms the whole time.  He is so cute.

Tyler and I went outside to look for deer antlers in the field.  We didn't find any but we did enjoy the sunshine and the warmth today has offered.  What a great day it is outside.  It's so nice seeing the sun for more then one day in a row.  That's something we will both miss once we are back in Bella Bella.

We have noticed that Ryan's are slowly changing colors.  There is a small slice of brown creeping in at the top of his right eye.  We knew his eyes wouldn't stay blue and I'm excited for him to get his real color.  What a sweet little boy we have.

Sonja