A few changes...

Well, Ryan is 3 weeks old today and I can't believe all that has happened in the last 3 weeks.  It's insane to me that he's already been in the world for 3 weeks.  And he's already changing so much.  He's growing so quickly.  I am glad for that though.  With yesterday being my 24th birthday, I was thinking about how fast time goes and how we really have to live every day and take it all in.  With Ryan growing daily and doing new things all the time, Tyler and I really have to learn to enjoy every part of it.  Even when he's awake every hour of the night, I have to enjoy it because before I know it, he will be moving out and getting a job.  I know that's getting way ahead of myself but I know it will come fast.

Today is going to be a fun day.  Most of my family is coming over and we are celebrating my birthday.  They will be showing up in the afternoon and then we will be enjoying a meal cooked by my mom for dinner.  Unfortunately, Tyler will miss a little bit of the party because he is at NAIT today doing a course for his schooling.  He will be here tonight though.

Right now, Ryan is sleeping on my chest as I type.  I'm thinking I'll have to learn to type one handed because Ryan is a little snuggle big and loves to be held and sleep on me.  I've only discovered this about 3 days ago so it will probably change.  I've been told that as soon as I think I've figured him out, he will change.  This is so true.  The first few nights we had Ryan home, he slept really well and only woke up 2 times a night for a bit of a feast.  Recently, he's been waking up every 2 and a half hours to eat.  I'm not liking these growth spurts but I'm glad my boy is growing.  He's healthy and putting on weight and I can't ask for anything else.  I've always known that health is such an important thing but I think having Ryan has really put that into perspective.  When he was born, he had to spend a few days in the NICU.  It was awful.  He was hooked up to a heart and breathing monitor and it was so sad to hear him cry and not be able to pick him up to comfort him.  I hated those hours.  But, he was the healthiest baby in the NICU and all the nurses said he was fine so that was something to be thankful for.  And now he's 9 pounds, 11 ounces and only getting bigger.  His eyes are more focused each day and I think he even recognizes my voice.  It's amazing seeing him grow.

I'm loving being his mom, and seeing Tyler as his dad.  It's really fun.  I know there will be times in the future when it wont be as fun, and I know that as of right now, the extent of my mothering skills doesn't go farther then what biology has given me, but it's still so fun.  I love that he needs me.  I love that when he cries and when I pick him up, he some times stops.  I love that Tyler and I are doing this together.  I love it when Ryan accidentally smiles at me, especially in the middle of the night when I just want to sleep.  He will flash me that charming little grin and I can't help but fall further in love with this little man.  He is such a little stinker and I love him so much.

I'm excited to get back home.  I do love being home with family and friends and civilization, but I'm getting sick of living out of a suitcase.  I'm getting sick of not having a permanent place to set up all of Ryan's things.  It will be so awesome to show Ryan off to all our friends back in BC.  They are all really excited to meet him.  I'm so excited to get to hang out with the family we have out there.  It's much slower and quieter out there and I'm excited to get back to that lifestyle.  I'm not wish our time away though.  Believe me, I love having Tyler around all day every day to help me learn how to take care of Ryan and to spend some really quality time with.  It's awesome that Tyler gets to relax and have so much vacation time.  We are having so much fun together.  Not every dad gets to spend this much time with his newborn son and I'm so glad that Tyler is enjoying this precious time with us.  It's also not bad that when Ryan needs his diaper changed at 4 in the morning, I don't feel bad waking Tyler up so he can do it because he's not going to work in the morning :)

I'm not so sure how blogging will go once we get back out to Bella Bella.  I like to think we can maintain a nightly post but I don't know how realistic that is.  I really want to because I love sharing our daily activities and now that Ryan is here, I'm sure people will be even more interested in reading it.  I might have to start posting in the mornings or the middle of the night.

So stay tuned.  I'm not sure when we will post next but I will try to again soon.  Ryan kind of runs the show now.

Sonja