The hardest part

The hardest part of the last week has been the fact that Ryan hasn't adjusted well to being without a permanent home.  It's been a huge challenge and I really hate not having a place of our own.  Ryan just doesn't sleep.  He's exhausted but he doesn't stay asleep.  Last night, he went to sleep at around 8 and was up at 2.  Usually I feed him and he goes back to sleep until the morning.  Instead, he was up until 6.  He just wasn't tired.  It's been tough to comfort him because he just cries and screams and won't settle down.  It's really frustrating for Tyler and I to deal with him these days because we also don't sleep but we have a lot more things to do in a day.

We are dealing with packing and organizing all our things for our big move up north.  It would be so much easier if Ryan napped his usual amount so we could have the time to do what we need to do.  I'm sure it will all get done regardless but still, it's a little annoying.  It's a good thing we love him or it would be unbearable.

I do think we have it all ready to go though.  Tomorrow, Tyler will run into Ponoka to pick up the U-haul truck and we will pack everything we own into it.  I think my favourite part of living back in Alberta is that we will have everything we own in one place and we will get to use it.  For the first time ever, we will get to use our wedding gifts and sleep on our own mattress and not have to use other people's things.  Actually, that's not totally true.  We are renting a fully furnished place in Manning for the time being so until we get our own place, we will be using their stuff… but at least all our stuff will be with us.  I'm excited to see what goodies we have stored away in those boxes.

Tomorrow is also the day we are celebrating Ryan's first birthday with the Jarrett's.  I can't believe it's already his first birthday and I'm not sure when it will sink in but that's happening tomorrow.  The family will gather and we will play games and hang out.  I baked him a cake and it looks really good.  It's not in a shape of anything, like Mickey Mouse's head or the number one but it should be tasty.

We will have a party with my family on Sunday and I'm really looking forward to that.

Right now, Ryan is screaming and crying.  We tried to put him to sleep the first time at 7:30 and now it's 9:30 so we are both really ready to just get into our new home and not be any where else. We are sick of being displaced and can't wait to settle into a new routine where Ryan won't be a turd every night.  So for now, I'm eating cake.  It's the only thing I know how to do at this point since Ryan won't settle down for me.  And it's pretty good.

Sonja