Grey skies are gonna clear up....

I woke up at about 4 this morning.  I looked at the clock and was excited that I had more time to sleep.  And soon after, Tyler was nudging me saying it was time to get up.  I couldn't figure it out.  I thought I had just looked at the clock.  It couldn't be time to get up already.  So I rolled over and was almost asleep again when Tyler nudged me again.  I didn't even hear the alarm go off this morning.  That never happens to me and I was a little confused as to why I was so out of it.

A warm shower and some good breakfast foods made my morning alright.  For some reason, I was already in a sour mood.  I think it's because I have been pretty bored lately.  The last few weekends Tyler has been studying so we haven't been taking advantage of the outdoors and that makes me feel cooped up.  And all my frustration and annoyances with being out here came over flowing out today.

I got to work and started doing my thing.  Soon, I realized I had to make changes to something on the system.  I thought I could just modify to entry, but of course it wasn't that easy.  It kept sending me an error message which made my blood boil.  There isn't anything more annoying then not knowing how to fix a "simple" problem.  I phoned and emailed a bunch of people, asking for help but no one answered back.  The one woman who did email me back said she couldn't help so she forwarded my question to someone else.  Isn't that how it always is?  No one ever knows the answer so you just get passed on until you give up.  I eventually took the entire entry off the system thinking it would be a lot easier to just re-add the whole thing with the minor change.  But that wasn't a good idea.  I entered all the information and once I hit send, it still gave me an error message that didn't make a lot of sense.  I just couldn't figure out how to fix this problem.

As all that was going on, the phone was ringing and only the dumbest people decided to call today.  It wasn't a very busy day but when that phone rang, I shuddered.  I didn't want to talk to anyone because that stupid computer issue hadn't been solved yet.

And then it was pointed out to me that one of the guards had marked down hours on a time sheet that he didn't actually work, when no one was even in cells.  So, I called the person in and my boss talked with him and he denied even writing in the numbers.  It was annoying not knowing who to believe in that situation.

And then it was lunch.  I had a very dark cloud around me and I wasn't very upset.  Just the worst mood I've been in in a long time.  I wasn't having fun at work, everything was making me doubt the intelligence of the people around here and I just wanted to curl up in our bed and go to sleep.  I wanted the day to end as fast as it could.  I complained to Tyler and that didn't work either.  Once he left, I decided I was pretty stupid.  I was stupid for letting something that doesn't really affect me ruin my day.  Stupid for thinking bad things about people.  I decided to change it.  I didn't want to spend the rest of the day being negative about every little thing.  So, I changed.  I looked up the cutest video I could think of on youtube and that just made me cheer right up.  The video was of 4 little kittens who are waiting for their owners to feed them.  Its 2 minutes of little meows.  I love it and it set my day right.

I got back to work and everything was better.  Those stupid little things that were bugging me before didn't seem to matter any more.  I learned to not take things so seriously because it doesn't really matter.  Those little things don't matter to my life in any sense.  So I gave it up.  And my day was awesome afterwards.  I laughed more, smiled more and enjoyed everything about it.

I didn't get the computer thing worked out so that made me upset.  But it just doesn't matter.  My day ended on a high note.

I worked out and came home.  I warmed up some pizza and called my very best friend Ranita.  We talked for so long and it was the best talk I've had in a long time.  We laughed and laughed and it was so good to talk to a good friend again.  We talked for an hour and a half.  About her wedding, her life, her job, my life, my job.  It was a very well rounded conversation and I loved it.  I miss friends and family.

And now we are relaxing.  Tyler came home from a silly workshop thing he had to do at work and now he is eating popcorn and I'm about to join him.  I'm really looking forward to this weekend.  It's been a long week and didn't really enjoy it, but I enjoyed little things along the way.

We booked our flights home last night.  We will be coming home on June 30th and I can't wait.

Sonja